Spain here I come

Next yeah looooo In.... kalau ade duit..... But I have to write it here. To make sure I will go there... hahahhahahah

Lady In Pink

I love myself. I don't know why lately i always depress and the sadness fill me, actually past few months already. With all the unhappy feeling inside that cant bring it out and it make me depress. But as usual I always project a happy face for other. ( sometimes the sadness still can be read on my face) When people see you are in happy mood they will be happy too. Such like a mirroring.

I bough a book yesterday. A religious book called " Supaya Gelisah Berniali Ibadah" I start reading it last night. However I'm not seriously reading it. Just as my bedtime book. But the next morning that is today before i off to my office I read it through again. Again I didn't read it follow the correct chapter just jumping here and there. Base on the reading it make me think, what I have now its not mine. Its below to the GREAT CREATOR. What we have now only temporary and it not below to us. So why should i felt sad or frustrated or depress with the bad things that we received from Him. He just give it to us for temporary for us to remember Him. For us to Thank Him for what He have gave to us. When think about that it makes my day. I thanks to ALLAH with what He gave me. Although I think its a burden, but each burden that He gave me, He also gave me a Great Gift.

As it change my mood, I make my self to have a happy mood today. Alhamdulillah with the great sunny morning. I'm wear pink today. From my head scarf to my new dress ( pink dress i bought for rm10.00) till the shoes that I am wear. Its pink.... So sweet. I'm happy and hope it will last.

What 2010 have for me!!!!!

Its a nice number... 2010..... twenty ten.... Dont you think so ;). Number is not just a number. Each of them, they have their own meaning. Each calculation become a formula that being used in our daily routine. But we just don't realize it. Okey enough about number...

2010...... what does this year have for me. More adventure, more waves and bigger waves, or it going to be a simple life no big impact like 2008..... ( 2008 is a honeymoon year for me but 2009 was WOW!!!! a big WOW for me but Alhamdulillah I mange to handle it. I think so ;)). But what I wan to achieve this year

PAY MY DEBTS:
YESSSS................ Wow i should do that. I will pay most of my debts especially my credits cards. They are killing me softly...... Insyallah I try to settle Ambank card. hehehehheheh as i make other arrangement for the others card :). And all the hutang that i make .... wajib bayar and

SAVING :
Save u Love traveling.... SO SAVE MONEY......... So this year I will put aside some money as my saving. Kene and wajib. Start this month nye salary.

MAKE EXTRA INCOME :
How ha!!!!!!!!!!!...... I wan to do writing. Write Information thing in a blog. Who know one day people would pay for it.... Tajam kan my skill of writing... reads lots of English and Malay books. OKEY!!!!!!!!! not jiwang jiwang or novel book... now Im old so more to matured readings. kekekekkekek

WORK :
Hmmmmmm Im still searching a stable job and that can give me time for my self. I dont wan to be workaholic type of person. Im not young anymore. If young yes i wold love to stay back in the office till late at nite. Now not anymore. I wish i can get more to management type of work. Assisntance for Project Manager. Why not kan....

BETTER MUSLIM :
Insyallah. Im working on being one. With the help of pakcik ;). Maybe be it will take time but i will work hard on in.

TRAVEL:
Hope I manage to travel 2 country this year. Insyallah kalau ade rezeki. Nak gie Thai or Kombodia and one of middle east country.... Insyallah kalau ade rezeki.

Ok I this this year will be a beautiful and better year then last year kan..... Insyallah...

" TRAVEL TO BETTER WORLD :) "

What have i acheive... not bad ha.....

This what I wrote in 2006 :
The pink colour is what i have achieve till 2009. I got another 2 years to go to achieve all.....

What I want to achive in 5 years???

Before i create this blog i was thinking what i wan to achieve in 5 years time.....
If i married or not? Hmm let say I get married wow my life will be totally different. I wont need to think about my self that time I will be thinking about my family, my kids and my hubby. Life that time will be completed. I think it would be so wonderful. (Still hoping)

If in not married hmmm I need to focus in my own life. My career, my happiness, and my money:). So this is the list I need to accomplish within 5 years.

Traveling :
Wanted to visit my sister awa and her hubby paco. At least celebrate Aidilfitri with them.
Umrah with my parents. ( I done this on 2009, Alhamdulillah I went for Umrah with my beloved Mommy. It was a wonderfull journey. Just cant express the feeling. Syukur to Allah with what He gave me. Insyallah Hajj soon)
Wanted to go to Middle East country. Some times I wonder how the Iran, Iraq people survive in their daily routine. I wanted to be there and feel it ;). (Manage to go to Dubai. Alhamdulillah. In asia I manage to visit Thailand and Philipine. Insyallah with some saving i would go travel again with my love ones ofcoz :)))


Immigrate:
Wanted to work in somewhere different from my country. Have a new environment mix with the local people. That would be nice. Start a new and fresh life. Wanted to have a simple life there. ( Im still working on in. Insyallah but I wont Immigrate. hehehehhe........)

Reading :
I wan to read. At least a book in a year. Or Want to make a reading as a hobby.
I wan to khatam Al-Quran once a year and read the tafsif Al-Quran so I do know and understand the contains of Al-Quran.
( Alhamdulillah now my hobby is reading. Love reading blogs, articles and books: motivation books, History book, Islamic book. And with someone who like to ' mencabar' me now I do read tafsir Al-Quran. Thanks to him, he teach me to find answer from Al-Quran. Khatam Al-Quran... not yeat Insyallah I will do it this year. Im starting from the 1st page since yesterday. Insyallah I will khatam end this year. Insyallah :)

A good song : SAVAGE GARDEN "CRASH 'N BURN"

Lately i don't know why i felt so down and sad. Are my life going to end soon? Sometimes .....yes I wish it will. Maybe because with the stress at the end of the year, I felt I can't handle it. But this morning I felt a bit different. Maybe after reading the "Career and Work" feng shui book by lilian too last nite kot... kekeke ;p. Ter'motivated' lah pulak. Lawak kan.... Masa Tahun Baru Maal Hijrah i dont get this feeling even masa the New Year 2010. Go go Save !! I know I can be better then last year. And I Love my self. And thanks to ALLAH with what You have gave me. And I know You will always be there for me.

Just wanted to share this song : Crush and Burn.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone