pijah's wedding

Was waiting a call from a friend of mine. Hopping he called on the 24th Jan… but seems it didn’t happen. Its ok as I mention to him I wont hope so much as I know he already put me aside from his life. Frustrated but what can I do…. I can’t force people to do things that I want.

Pijah’s wedding…… it was great. Make me stop thinking about other stressful things. That good. I left her less then a year and she settle down with zaki. Hmmmm if I didn’t left My-Ms maybe they are still as a couple. And it goes to hafeez too. Less then a year I left dea org nie terus tak sabar nak kawin….ish…. kekekek =)). But I’m so happy for them. I’m sorry hafeez I cant make it to your wedding.

I still can remember how it start. Kekekek lawak kan pijah if pikir balik. Pijah did mention to me to remind her that she don’t wan zaki… but apa yg kite tak nak at end kite unpredictable to get. That life. Allah knows wat best for us kan….

Here some pictures for the nikah and the wedding…… guess what I’m the one who jadi ala-ala flower girl. There are 2 flower girls in front of me and nisha and me jadi the girls yang bawa bunga telur. My 1st time experience. Tak pe pijah nantie ur daughter or son will me my flower kids…… Kekkekekekeke. Siap ade kompang lagi. Best lah. But I don’t have the pictures later I will ask pijah to give me. She has her own cameraman.

And guess wat….. I didn’t tell pijah I met a very handsome guy. Kekekekek handsome sangat… suke lah…. Smart guy…. Proper dressed. Matured….although body tak macam fahrin ahmad but I like the way he projected him self……kekekekeekke……. Sempat lagi makcik usha usha guys….. as usual I always admire a guy that who wont have an interest in me. Its ok as long as I tak sakitkan hati org. happy viewing the wedding pic……

Sweet nye pijah........ as sweet as her heart....... May Allah bless u my love

Insyallah bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat.......

Makcik sorang nie dok nak interprame je...... Insyallah my time will come soon. kekekkek

And this is Eddy pic the make up guy… pak andam… he is a very nice guy. Sweet sangat and baik. U know wat!!! Wat make me like him more when he told pijah he like my voice…. “ Suara dea best. Nak marah pun tak jadi” Argggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so excited…. No one give me that comment before…… Kembang makcik….. Boleh masuk AF nie … kui kui kui…… People especially my friends call me sura macam doremon….. hehehehheheh….. Girls if you guy getting marry in penang go to his salon. He work at Jalinan Kasih.. He is good……

He is a very nice and artistic guy.... Keep up the good work eddy..... If i dapat org penang i will call u to make over me.... ;)
After the nikah sempat lagi I gie huha with some new friends. Nini, Tazkirah and Fahmi…. Tazkirah is a girl from Bangladesh. Nini is pijah’s cousin and Fahmi is tazkirah fren…… so jejalan………nice knowing them……. Tazkirah don’t forget to introduce me to your lecturer cousin that working here….. hahahahahah….. we should enjoy life…..

kekekekekek....... posing maut this guys....... we r single and.......

memories.....

Memories……

Fuh…. Life is hard when you don’t have someone you really love around you, being with you. Up and down alone, suffering and surviving alone, happy and joy alone. I wish I could have that some one to share all this with me again. Cry and laugh together sad and joy together sharing every moment together.

Now at this moment I don’t know why the feeling come again. It makes me cry. Cry really hard I guess. Quit long time I didn’t cry this hard, nearly a year. As usually I cry coz of him. Remembering him. Just wan to thank to my dear friend B….N to make me felt better and smile but still the feeling is there. As he quote from Forest Gump movie “ stupid is as stupid as it does.” Kekekek. That what make me write this.

Its start from the text message (sms)on Pijah’s wedding. I do send him sms before but he never replies me. I understand he is married and he doesn’t want to give me any hopes. I appreciate that. This time when he replied to congrats Pijah for her wedding make me remember the feeling towards him again.

“Of cause I remember her, convey my great congrats and beautiful life. N same to u. How about you? How’re you doing?”
“ Me im tired with life. Hectic life. I heard that Turky getting marry. Send my rgds to him”
“Turky is done with engagement. Ina I always pray for you that u will have a beautiful life even better then mine J. May Allah bless u and ur family. Kind rgds”

Ina….. only him call me Ina. Only family member call me ina. He is the only person who can call me ina till now. Its make me sad. I miss him. Miss him so much really much. On my way back to KL from Penang I did cried on the flight just because of that sms. Im so stupid when it come to love. It’s just because of the memories. I wan to replace it with new ones but I cant find it…. Am I so choose? No I’m not .I don’t think so. Did I make any barrier? Hmmmm maybe ….

Abg Long aka Capt. Jack Sparrow tell me how to forget him. I remember u told me to forget the Omani guy. I tried to forget him. I tried to mingle around with other guys. But most of them wanted me for other things. And the person that I really like don’t even like me… how ? J Hmmmmm I want them to love me for want I am. Beauty won’t last long. Its just temporary but most of the guys wanted to have a beautiful elegant lady beside them. I don’t think I have that. But what I know I have the heart (I think so) and I’m not perfect but I’m willingly to change. Hmmmmmm abg long help me to forget him. It’s so painful. What should I do…. Work hard again? I done that but it doesn’t work. Loneliness is always there. I will try again. Once I get a great job. Work Work Work………

Ketulusan hati

I really love this song. I give this song for someone i tot he love me and like me as wat i am. but im just unlucky gal..... apa leh buat. we cant push ppl to love and care for us......

Ketulusan hati

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Persembahan utk dirimu

Kau benarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu

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Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu

Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati

Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu

keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu