Memories……
Fuh…. Life is hard when you don’t have someone you really love around you, being with you. Up and down alone, suffering and surviving alone, happy and joy alone. I wish I could have that some one to share all this with me again. Cry and laugh together sad and joy together sharing every moment together.
Now at this moment I don’t know why the feeling come again. It makes me cry. Cry really hard I guess. Quit long time I didn’t cry this hard, nearly a year. As usually I cry coz of him. Remembering him. Just wan to thank to my dear friend B….N to make me felt better and smile but still the feeling is there. As he quote from Forest Gump movie “ stupid is as stupid as it does.” Kekekek. That what make me write this.
Its start from the text message (sms)on Pijah’s wedding. I do send him sms before but he never replies me. I understand he is married and he doesn’t want to give me any hopes. I appreciate that. This time when he replied to congrats Pijah for her wedding make me remember the feeling towards him again.
“Of cause I remember her, convey my great congrats and beautiful life. N same to u. How about you? How’re you doing?”
“ Me im tired with life. Hectic life. I heard that Turky getting marry. Send my rgds to him”
“Turky is done with engagement. Ina I always pray for you that u will have a beautiful life even better then mine J. May Allah bless u and ur family. Kind rgds”
Ina….. only him call me Ina. Only family member call me ina. He is the only person who can call me ina till now. Its make me sad. I miss him. Miss him so much really much. On my way back to KL from Penang I did cried on the flight just because of that sms. Im so stupid when it come to love. It’s just because of the memories. I wan to replace it with new ones but I cant find it…. Am I so choose? No I’m not .I don’t think so. Did I make any barrier? Hmmmm maybe ….
Abg Long aka Capt. Jack Sparrow tell me how to forget him. I remember u told me to forget the Omani guy. I tried to forget him. I tried to mingle around with other guys. But most of them wanted me for other things. And the person that I really like don’t even like me… how ? J Hmmmmm I want them to love me for want I am. Beauty won’t last long. Its just temporary but most of the guys wanted to have a beautiful elegant lady beside them. I don’t think I have that. But what I know I have the heart (I think so) and I’m not perfect but I’m willingly to change. Hmmmmmm abg long help me to forget him. It’s so painful. What should I do…. Work hard again? I done that but it doesn’t work. Loneliness is always there. I will try again. Once I get a great job. Work Work Work………
Fuh…. Life is hard when you don’t have someone you really love around you, being with you. Up and down alone, suffering and surviving alone, happy and joy alone. I wish I could have that some one to share all this with me again. Cry and laugh together sad and joy together sharing every moment together.
Now at this moment I don’t know why the feeling come again. It makes me cry. Cry really hard I guess. Quit long time I didn’t cry this hard, nearly a year. As usually I cry coz of him. Remembering him. Just wan to thank to my dear friend B….N to make me felt better and smile but still the feeling is there. As he quote from Forest Gump movie “ stupid is as stupid as it does.” Kekekek. That what make me write this.
Its start from the text message (sms)on Pijah’s wedding. I do send him sms before but he never replies me. I understand he is married and he doesn’t want to give me any hopes. I appreciate that. This time when he replied to congrats Pijah for her wedding make me remember the feeling towards him again.
“Of cause I remember her, convey my great congrats and beautiful life. N same to u. How about you? How’re you doing?”
“ Me im tired with life. Hectic life. I heard that Turky getting marry. Send my rgds to him”
“Turky is done with engagement. Ina I always pray for you that u will have a beautiful life even better then mine J. May Allah bless u and ur family. Kind rgds”
Ina….. only him call me Ina. Only family member call me ina. He is the only person who can call me ina till now. Its make me sad. I miss him. Miss him so much really much. On my way back to KL from Penang I did cried on the flight just because of that sms. Im so stupid when it come to love. It’s just because of the memories. I wan to replace it with new ones but I cant find it…. Am I so choose? No I’m not .I don’t think so. Did I make any barrier? Hmmmm maybe ….
Abg Long aka Capt. Jack Sparrow tell me how to forget him. I remember u told me to forget the Omani guy. I tried to forget him. I tried to mingle around with other guys. But most of them wanted me for other things. And the person that I really like don’t even like me… how ? J Hmmmmm I want them to love me for want I am. Beauty won’t last long. Its just temporary but most of the guys wanted to have a beautiful elegant lady beside them. I don’t think I have that. But what I know I have the heart (I think so) and I’m not perfect but I’m willingly to change. Hmmmmmm abg long help me to forget him. It’s so painful. What should I do…. Work hard again? I done that but it doesn’t work. Loneliness is always there. I will try again. Once I get a great job. Work Work Work………
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